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Friday, May 30, 2008 ♥ 5/30/2008 01:28:00 PM

Listening to 飞轮海-<一万个快乐>~

Suddenly, felt that this song suit my mood. Feeling cold, and moodless. One of the reasons is dued to my UT. i think i flunk my UT2. Early this morning, so dao mei, waited so long for the lift and train. In the end, almost late for my class. Seriously, no mood to attend Erhan(Chemistry)'s lesson. Last day of school before holiday start, still this kind of problem statement. Feel like to pon, but looking at my UT grades... and thought for a while and delete my thinking.

Ytd is the last day i working at Toh Payoh~ Has been working there for 4 days, we both(YY and me) exhausted and under stress. During the days we are working, we have 2 UTs that we need to focus on. That double tired for me and triple tired for her. Felt sorry for her.....

Finally, tml is the starting of holiday, although feeling great in some ways, still dunno what to do during holi. Feeling sian~

Finally i get to rest well at home after 4 days of working. These few days, being thinking 有的没的. Dont know why. Haiz.

Blog until here.......................................................................................

Tuesday, May 27, 2008 ♥ 5/27/2008 12:07:00 AM

Days of holidays are getting nearer and nearer, however, i am not getting any better, in terms of grades, i shld behave more moodless than before. Today is an example, today my facilitator swapped class with my 'relief ' faci, initially i dont really like her way of teaching, i a bit bu shuang of her le. Even pissed off, is that i was typing while looking at her that time, she said something that make me feel angry, she said that dont do anything that are not related to today problem, dont think i dunno what u doing, be more concentrate. After she said this sentence, i totally lose my interest in listening to the 6P le, feel like crying again. I think i am undergoing tons of stress, both in school and home. Double stress....;(((((( At this point of time, there is no point of me browsing through 6p, i know that what i know will not directly out in the UT, pointless of me to read through, i will try my best. I really hope holiday will come soon, so i need not come out and undergo so many stress. I will be able to stay at home and hid in one corner, not letting pple come close to me. i seriously need to sort out my feelings. Since Year 2 started, my feeling seems to turn much more complicated and hard to explain. I don't know where is the real me hidden to? Am i able to conquer and find the real me back, this is still a maze/challenges for me.....

Saturday, May 24, 2008 ♥ 5/24/2008 05:25:00 PM

After UTs have been out, i realized that no matter how hard i tried to study and absorb the knowledge, i am still not able to achieve the desire grades that i want. I suddenly felt that i am hopeless, helpless. No one, nothing can help me gain back my confidence. I am not longer the one that used to be so hardworking in class, and asking around anymore, i become more lazy and heck care person. Maybe the incidence shocked me a lot, making me changed into another person. Don't think that i always out there laming joke and laughing out loud, actually deep inside of me, no one actually know that i have a deep cut in my heart. However, i choose not to say out and continue to show people who i always was.This issue let me thought of a lot of matters. It reminded me of what my mom told to me, she said to me if i failed my GPA, or not able to improve on my academic studies, she will reprimands me. i really afraid that this day will eventually come to me. It was scary =X I tried to tell myself not to think too much, but as time pass by, i felt that my days are out-numbered. I was alway telling myself, why am i so stupid and dumb, why cant i like those experts who are smart, nice-looking and tall. Since i am not able to change my appearance , i somehow need to change my inner side. Trying very hard now, struggling hard to study and yet still score badly for my science UTs. Life in RP is bored and tired. Hope i can conquer myself and not to let my friends, family and relatives down.

Thursday, May 22, 2008 ♥ 5/22/2008 10:16:00 PM

Happy Birthday to u tOO~ Adeline. Hope u like the presents that we chose for you.(although i din involved in choosing). Anyway, hope u like the cake that i chose for u. haha. Suddenly, i felt that just only a blink of eye, we now officially 18 le.

Initially, we wanted to go to Ikea to have our dinner, however, it is under renovation.=((( Haiz, we have no choice but to head to Anchor Point instead. I thought that Anchor point would be the same as other shopping centres that also have "Points". And out of my expectation is that it only consist of 2 levels and very pathetic, no choice we have our dinner at Kou Fu, which doesn't look like one.

After dinner, we all headed home. Enjoying myself that night, next time will be Zihui's turn. What Fun thing will happen on that day, no one know....Let hope it will be an interesting and memorable day for Zihui.

Friday, May 16, 2008 ♥ 5/16/2008 09:38:00 PM

16/05/2008 is a special day and yet a meaningful day to me. It was my 18th birthday. Thank W55F for the surprise and bringing joy to me every lesson that we have. And not to forget my secondary school friends and yr1-sem 1 classmates. They help me celebrate for that entire night. Sorry for being mood less that day, i was not on purpose. My classmates were playful enough that they actually hide something from me, and surprise me by buying a birthday cake for me and celebrate for me in the class, that time, i was stunned and touched by their efforts. I never get to celebrate with such a large group of friends/classmates besides i just only get to know them for just only a mth + touching.....

When i passed Jobelle her bag that time, she also have something for me, thank Jobelle for ur wonderful presents and photo taking with me. Jobelle is the first in my last sem's classmate who wishes me happy birthday, but i don't mind, at least someone remember. ;P

So that night, celebrate at JP(Jurong Point) and how sweet they are, they knew that i have ate 2 cakes earlier on, so instead of cake, they bought me Ice cream. yuMMy... Oh Almost forget that earlier in the morning i came into class, Eunice bought me a small cute pinky strawberry cake for me. Thank Eunice! ;]

Gan yan: Like to say a big thank to every single one that send me msg/msn/wishes to me and wishing me "happy birthday to u~". As for those who always say that i must not guai and don't act childish or be lame one, u all xin zhi du ming. haha. But still want to thank for wishing me. ;] In the future, i will try not to be lame and must be a good kid, so that pple won't critise me anymore.

Below are some pictures for u all to see....plx enjoy!

Present from my cousin(Xuan Qi)

present from Zihui, Meiting, Adeline and Xiaoqian

Present from Jobelle ;P

Thursday, May 15, 2008 ♥ 5/15/2008 10:05:00 PM

Today is the last day of being 17.
from tml onward, i will be offically 18.
left 2 more hours.
i have to say goodbye to my;
1. childishness
2. lameness
3. sense of humors
4.cold jokes

i will miss them, cause they are part of my life, without them,
there will be no Peiyi
No Peiyi, meaning no w55fician, no w25mician,no w25Qician.
Ok. i was talking rubbish...
Back to subject.
Finally waited for 17Years......

To be continued....

Sunday, May 11, 2008 ♥ 5/11/2008 08:26:00 PM

Today is Mother's Day. Sad case, i am not able to celebrate this special occasion with my Grandparents. Due to my bro having Exam tml. =X EveryOne at this point of time, all celebrate with their dearest moms, all went out to eat or maybe bring them to place of interest. Although, i don't really like my mom, still she is still my closest and dearest mom, i can't have without her. So my celebration is to stay at home and study for tml UT. ;((( These few days(starting on friday itself), i have been trying very hard to concentrate on my UT. However, at this point of time, i only manage to squeeze that much knowledge in my brain. I seriously can't concentrate. Physic is really very difficult. Haiz, felt very sorry that i alway trouble Dickson and Jason a lot. As in asking them whether what the meaning of this word, the meaning of that words. PS!!!=Sorry!! ;P

Rest assure, tml is the last module for UT1 that i will take. Sigh~ Science really driving me crazy, somemore everyday i am taking different types of science. OMG pls help me! STRESS~

Time really pass very fast~ So fast, one month have passed and now my relationship with W55F is getting better and better. Hehe ;P Somemore in my class, hab one entertainer(President of Comedy IG). Oh ya, my class intend to have a "class gathering" tml after UT. they plan to have it at Dian Xiao Er(CWP). So far, i only there is quite a number of pple going, but not inclusive of me. As i have mentioned in the previous post, i have to buy cake for my bro and help me celebrate. At least, this is the least we can do for him. So have to give a miss for the gathering. They will have fun, won't they?

So far, this week, we have been changing team except for Chemistry. My team so far so so, not so bad. Hai ke yi guo de qu. Just that this week, my mood was not very good, so somehow it affect my grades. ;((

These two days,it's been raining at 3 or 4 am in the morning~ Hope next week, it won't rain, or else my mood will change again. Haiz.

To be continued...

Friday, May 9, 2008 ♥ 5/09/2008 09:49:00 PM

TGIF!! last day of schOol for this week. having BiO lesson and we have changed into new team.Hmm not bad my team mates are very pro and hardworking type. So i bounded to get B today, reason: din participate much during the meeting and presentation. Photocopier <--> cell replication? Confused? haha, that what i learnt in today lesson, thank to Jason("A" student), Yao Yang, Jesslyn, Dickson(4 Star Pro) for teaching me. =) Once again thank to u all ;P

Finally, next mon is my Br0ther's birthday. Too bad, he can't celebrate on that day itself, due to having exam. But we will help him and shun bian celebrate my birthday(fall on next friday) on Wednesday itself. Sorry no outing that day! Celebrating with my friends ; Xiaoqian, Meiting, Adeline and Zihui on friday. =)

Oh ya one more thing, Xiaoqian and Jiayu insisted me to blog on this matter:
Today, we took 902 to school, and we hopefully could find Meh Meh and squeeze in to take with her, However, upon seeing her, she don't let us get in. This is how she repay us back?? (last time, we allow her and Eslyn to chop in and now... Sigh~) Forget it le, saw Jason when boarding the bus today. He look emo today, maybe because he din get the chance to walk with her dream gal(W55G)?? ;]

Yesterday night, i cried damn hard, i not sure how long i cried, but as long as i remembered. I was thinking if i failed my UT this year, what reaction my mom will get? Maybe i am under stress that cause me to become Emo?? Anyway, after crying for that night, i felt much more better, today i able to joke around and back to the same old lame me.(P.s i still can walk. =P)

Thursday, May 8, 2008 ♥ 5/08/2008 03:29:00 PM

Just went to check my CE pt and realised that they have replaced my 4 NDA pt back. Luckily. Now i left 7 pts unclear.

Today in my team, i have moodswing as my team mates, they all treat me like transparent, as if i not there, this still consider minor to me,but what i cant stand is that me and Gowri were there struggling hard enough for the worksheet questions and they(KF and J) playing Dota all the times,like they ignoring us at all, din help to contribute. =X
I was like ok, fine, u two gang up and bully me, fine with me...i will not do anything to it...leave it to the faci to decide.

So i was like emo all the way, i dont know why i felt that way, just don feel like talking for the whole day, i was stoning in the class for as long as i can. Maybe because of some other reasons that making me feel that way. However, when people ask me what happened, i just said nothing, just to make them feel safe about me. But actually i am ok. ;(

the more they ask me whether how i feeling, the more sad i am. I really dunno what happen to me...
Some thing really creepy is going on inside me...i really feel like crying today, one of the reasons is that today i dunno anything about Chemistry, i felt myself very useless, not able to help much. So the whole presentation, i just spoke for one sentence......

So for the sake of god, please don talk to me/ message me today. Let me be quiet for the rest of today.....

Emo day for me......;;(((

Wednesday, May 7, 2008 ♥ 5/07/2008 09:09:00 PM

When i check my webmail, i saw this message saying that your CE pt has been uploaded, i was damn happy, but when i went in to check that time, i realised that my 4 CE pt was gone *pOOf* i was shocked that now i left 11 pts instead of 9. suddenly i feel like to cry out, i felt that RP cheat my feeling. Plus today when i went home, i was reprimand by my mom for not sweeping the flOOr befOre i went out.

Today went i haven been scolded by her that time, i meet my this sem classmates, San San suggested we have a class outing instead, in the end only turned up 4(Kian fei left after having lunch with us, so not counted). We went to orchard(lucky plaza) as they said want to play pOOl, so join them. After that, i met Jeannie (last sem's classmate)on the way to Doby Gaut. I think the whole day we are like walking the whole Singapore as in walking from Orchard to Doby Gaut to Esplanade to City Hall. Phew~ damn hot while walking. Perspiring a lot.

After Dickson and Jason finished their dinner, we went home in the evening, Blogging this while feeling sad, as i just get to know that my 4CE pt just flew away. *sOb*

Anyway, really have fun going out with them, if have chance, we might get to have a whole class gathering next time.

Still feeling sad, crying...

Tuesday, May 6, 2008 ♥ 5/06/2008 09:42:00 PM

Ytd--> first to reach the class, reach around 8am. and the last to leave the class, around 5.25pm. Dued to having Bio UT, need to come to school to start revising. in the end, no one arrived until 8.06am.

Today--> Having UT again, this time is Materials science(my own course), damn tough, i took almost the whole day to remember those equations. After UT, went out with my classmates, as they said they want to purchase materials science reference book at Clementi( more cheaper, that's they said). So all 7 of us went(Dickson, Kian fei, Jessica, JiaQing,San San, Yao Yang and me). after some of them purchase the book, we went to KFC to have our dinner, and i hear some ke kao xiao xi..hehe i don wish to share..it the secret of the secret seven. left Clementi around 7.30pm. having fun today, glad to mix these bunch of friends.

As for the UT, i think i am going to flunk it. although i look like the kind who understand, but when UT out, my mind went in a total blank. Cant think of the answers. Hope that this thur team will be a better one, so i get to bully either one of them...*evil grin*

Sunday, May 4, 2008 ♥ 5/04/2008 02:12:00 PM

11 more days...

Ytd went out with Zihui, initally i not allow to go out, cos my mom said :'Have UT on mon still want to go shopping?" but after that i tried to persuade her to let me go out. In the end, i succeeded!^_^

Our mission is to go out to buy something for adeline, in the end, we went shopping and spent $30. =X i shouldnt go out with Zihui de.. Sigh~ we went to Vivo to watch "Nim's island" which cost us $10!!! sigh~ after that we all along went to buy different beads, which also cost me around $20 like that.. Sian, dont like to go out and spent a lot..

OMG, this week i drank 3 times of Milk tea le...so i will try to cut down the number of times i drank. Ytd night, Zihui suddenly want to drink Milk tea(haha same as me, no cure le...) so we saw one shop which is different, the shop is from Taiwan, and they have different sizes for their cups(S,M,L) although their prices are far more expensive than other shops, but their milk tea not very milky and not very teh. just nice. And one more thing, what make me surprise is that after u order the drink that u want, they will ask u whether which level of sugar you prefer. they have different levels; no sugar(0%), a quarter of sugar(25%), normal sugar level(50%), higher sugar level( 75%) and lastly the highest level(100%). It is good that they have this to meet all the criteria of customers and also to emphasize heath conscious. Wah~ a lot of good knowledge we get to see in this shop. Next time, can go there and buy. ;]

Tml i will be having UT le...sian~ dont really understand those bio terms. However, iwill jiayous and jiayous de... Never say die~ is my motto....muahahah ;]

that for all....

Friday, May 2, 2008 ♥ 5/02/2008 10:10:00 PM

14days left...

today is the second day of May in 2008. today is also my friend, Zheng Nan's birthday! Happy birthday to you!^_^

Phew~ so fast, just a blink of my eyes, and *pOOf*, i have attended 4 weeks of lesson in W55F. haha, really have fun in my class. although i don really like today lesson(esp there is a guy la, don wish to say his name (a****n)).However, i like my faci, she is nice + super friendly and cheerful!^_^

Finally today is the last day of school for this week, sian le, next week onward, Mon and Tue i have UTs...=.= bOred.. No mOOd to stuDy sia...

Yippee~ today meet Zihui to collect my bag, which i waited for like one month le...yup, similar to meiting's, however smaller than hers. Hmm not bad la,hehe...

Tml, going out with zihui, hmm we still have though of the places we want to go, but confirm want to buy my elmo/cookie monster/big bird's toy...hehe...Hope i can get it.....

that all for now....=P