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Tuesday, September 30, 2008 ♥ 9/30/2008 09:38:00 PM

Back to my Post le...

long time din update le...

first of all, i want to announce that i have reformat my com...Finally...Though i don think that is a good thing to celebrate for. But is my last long wish of turning my com into Vista...Though i know that it will be super super laggy....Both loading and playing game. But still no choice right...? i also have no choice of choosing my own destiny. All leave it up to god....

went back to School to reformat.Sorry all(Zihui, Xiaoqian, RuiYun) for waiting. i am truely sorry that i have taken too much of your time. and really appreciate ur accompany with me to RP today ;)

went to Suntec City. Nothing much to see or shop. In return of favor, i accompany them to there.. Hahas.. In the end, we had our late lunch Aka early dinner and i bought a pen! Lol...Quite tired thoughout the whole journey. Carrying along my lappy and walked almost half a day. Gonna be tired out. I admit that i getting lazier as time pass by.

Hmm...Having UT this thur. ES(P.s Environmental Science) UT1... OMG!! Quite worried for it. haven start revision and yet getting back to serious work...Have been slacking all day. Wonder why i lost my enthusiatic and passion of learning. 当时那个单纯却充满好奇心的女孩去了哪...?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008 ♥ 9/24/2008 11:17:00 AM

Yesterday-Field Trip to BTNR....Exhausted yet meaningful and exciting.
Drained out totally...after the trip....
work hard on PPT....
No strength to work neither to smile...
Upon reaching home...
Drop dead on bed till the next morning...
Pictures i took yesterday during the trip...
I like one of the pictures especially it indicated a heart shape on the log...Cool Huh...
enjoy:

Sunday, September 21, 2008 ♥ 9/21/2008 01:22:00 PM

Peiyi is happy
Peiyi is sad
Peiyi is confused.
Peiyi is complicated yet simple.
Peiyi is mature yet Childish
Peiyi is weak yet strong

She doesnt not know what she is like. She may have different emotions inside her. She doesnt know when she wil become the next person...She is very scary...She doesnt know when to be happy and when to be sad.She only know that she need to do the right action. Shown out what she actually feeling. However, something deep inside her have stopped her from showing all her true feeling out. So she only show some parts out and the rest will be kept permenently inside her. Till one day, one person came up to her and unlocked her doors and treasure will be shown out. However, she is still waiting for this person to appear. She has been waiting for a long time. But time to her is not important. She is willing to wait for this person. No matter what. she will not give up. She want to show that she actually is not that weak. What is ahead her is full of obstacle. Be strong and overcome them. Cause she did not forget that her surrounding, there are plently of friends that willing to help her overcome all these obstables. During the process, it may hurt her deep inside. She still have to endure it and fight all in order to reach her destination. Though now, she still not even half of the path. She will not get defeated easily. She must brave her hesd through.. most importantly she need both physical and mentally moral support not only from herself alone, friends, family are also part of her life.

What can she do in order to show other that she is not a feeble. Sometime ppl doesnt need to show out that there are strong in order to consider to be strong. In fact, when one uses it's brain, they are still able to defeat their opponents without moving. That is a smart move. However, for Peiyi's conditions, she still not able to unlock this part. So she is still trying hard and learning hard. She has thousand and in fact millions of sorrows inside her. When upon looking at people who are stronger, she will somehow become upset. However, she knew that she was in fault first. She disobey the rules first. No one was to blame except her. So she accepts the punishment. However, she wont let history repeat again. She must try harder and not only that. She also must share everything with her friends. She felt that sharing is caring. So she shared every piece of information that she gain with her friends. She knew that this will result in compeition.But she doesnt want to say anything. And she mentioned that she want to get over all this. She is not gonna fight whether who benefit or who's lost. She want to start everything brand new again. She cant promise that she will succeed in the end, she only can assure that she will become better than before. She is starting all over again, she want to bring happiness to her friends as well as herself. If her friends are happy, she herself wont be happy. Her aim is to bring laughter and joy to this world, especially her friends surrounded her. :)

Saturday, September 20, 2008 ♥ 9/20/2008 01:12:00 PM

Peiyi said that Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE. Only people who doesnt believe will fail. No one is born to be a failure. Without Failure, There wont be success. Rainbow doesnt form without the help of rain plus sunlight. Without efficient Help from classmates plus own hardworking effort. i believed IMPOSSIBLE will turn out to become I M POSSIBLE. Dont be pesstimtic, that is what Peiyi's friend told her. Be Opmistic and look at the bright side. Perhaps Peiyi din see the effort that Faci want to show to her. They believed that Peiyi is a good and hardworking gal. Just that either she haven enlightened and open the door awaiting ahead her. Or she din try hard enough, she might have tried and used the wrong technique. But don need to worry for her..She has clear her thoughts out. She doesnt want to hurt anyone, neither she want to affect her friends surrounded her. Though she kept a lot of things inside her. But her intention is good, Peiyi doesnt want anyone to worry for her. Though she is not very smart as compared to her friends, she still has her good points, strengthes, which she should be proud of it. However, only to an extent that she shouldnt be proud of what she has. She still need to work harder to achieve better grades and performances. Deep inside her, she want to achieve well, but instead she sacrificed her parts and help her friends, in the end, others only see her outer inside of inner. therefore, they din know that actually Peiyi works really hard for every lesson, but no chance to show out. But doesnt matter, those are past. She cant do anything anymore. All she can do is to move forward, work even harder, revised and do all her parts, and most importantly she doesnt want to repeat the history again. Though she is shy and quiet in class, she really want to do a part for the class. Just that she afraid the higher she expected, the higher she will fall down. And it will be very tough for her to climb up again.

Once again, motivation is also equally important for her. Without encouragement from her friends, i guess by the time now, she wont be able to stay calm. She mentioned before that she was sad because others din really know her from inside. Instead only judge her from her covers. She cant show others that she actually is fragile, especially her heart. But she doesnt want to disturb others. She really need friends' concern, but she is afraid that her friends will feel that she is irriating, therefore she doesnt want to say out. Because friends are equally important to her life. However, only a minority of her friends she wish to tell her regarding her, but in other way, she afraid that she might not able to take it. So Peiyi can be said that she is helpless, she cant even help herself not to say her friends. She doesnt know how to continue her life in her school. The higher her education level, the more things she tend to worry about. Studies is important to her in some ways, she fears of getting demoted or retained. She is a quiet and tend to need protection.Her friend once told her that be strong gal. Dont be bully by others, sometimes she cant even protect herself, still she want to protect her friends by showing concern to them. However, only a minortiy of them will be able to see her strengthes.She has a lot of things kept inside her head, but she doesnt know how to expressed or start the topic. So she chose to avoid, she knew that the more she avoid the more she will reveal herself out. Eventually, people will see out. She wished to find someone that she is comfortable to say to. Sometimes, Peiyi will tend to say out things that she are not meant to say.Do things that she aint suppose to do, and she cant find ways/solutions to solve the problem throughly. She doesnt know what to do now, all she knew is to hide everything by giving a big smile to everyone that she met. By doing this way, she can cover her feelings/emotions for a while.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ♥ 9/16/2008 08:12:00 PM

Double sadness and 刺激 that i recieved. I got an C first time for whole year 2. I was shocked and all my hope was being crashed and demoralised by this grade. I dunno what i can do anymore. First sadness: I listen to what the lesson(Chemistry), and in the end, she gave me an C. fair? i doubt so. Second Sadness: which i mentioned in my previous post, i was being bullied. Is heaven punishing me...? Double attack~ now i totally lost interest in studying...No point studying and working hard. All my efforts went to waste. Totally~
Now make me dislike Chemistry..She was far more worst than Erhan....=( I did listen attentively..Her quiz questions i score well...just that i din speak more.....Make me lost interest in speaking up.... :'(

I seriously don no what to do, and what i can react..I only can treAt nothing happen. But i don think i can smile like before....I want to cry out and reflect on myself...Why am i becoming this way, and why i deserved this kind of treatment? i must have done wrong somewhere.. From the start of the lesson, i know that in this semester. 注定 i wont score well. Even i work very hard than before, my 遭遇 will be twice worst. No matter how much i cried.. Result is being shown. Hard work are not paid off.So what the point to carry on. Though i want to do better, i really really want to do better in this sem. But i am just too simple and stupid. Whatever i do is wrong. i just don make thing right. I want to cry, but i cant do it in front of ppl... I only can do it secretly...I really dislike this semester... Faci demanding, topic diffcult, lot of pressure, inclusive worrying about PP poster presentation, Searching for FYP partners, Studies(UTS, daily grade). I worry a lot, i really really scare that i will fail my grade...and i wont be able to promote to year 3....

Believe me, i really want to be better...i just cant....Why cant i be more smarter...Why cant i get the concept faster than others...Why whatever i do is extra...?I really should knock senses into myself....

Make me lost interest in Studies....But i cant just give up that easily..Some one please give me motivation....
i really want to work hard and study well.. I don want history to repeat itself.....
i don want to fall back into my 阴影...but can i be happy...? or my smiles are fake...?

Monday, September 15, 2008 ♥ 9/15/2008 09:32:00 PM

Chemistry lesson: ~~Learning of making ice cream~~
Objective: Which ingredient best suit for making ice cream.

Though i din get the chance to make ice cream(cause one tub for one class only), i still get to have the fun looking at my classmates preparing the ingredients and having our "class bond" in participating in shaking the tub. Within 2 round of shaking, Miracles happen, Ice cream being formed. From Crust Ice, Milk and Salt only..Wah that was super cool...Though i don dare to try them, heard from my classmate saying that it tastes salty. Some even said that after trying, they got stomachache. Luckily i din try any of it....

Chemistry lesson can be fun, when i understand what the problem statement is talking about, if not chemistry is not fun at all...Personally, i am not criticizing anyone, just only saying out what i feel. I feel that Ms Lau's way of teaching is friendly, but maybe is my problem, i just feel that her way of teaching is only contradicting toward her saying. For instance, when she want to explain this structure, with others having better reasons, she will lost her sense of teaching and become confused in some ways. Or rather, when she was trying to explain to the class, her ways of expressing is still not strong enough. Still in between her words, there are some parts which are unclear. However, Faci is still better a student. I doesnt have the rights to say her. I only have to improve on my own skills. My foundation on Chemisty 一向来 always very weak.So as compared to other normal students. I will need more time to digest and understand the logic behind.

Everything went smoothly until coming to the end of the lesson. Initially, i just take it lightly that they are just playing and joking with me. But i din expected that they 得寸进尺. They start to make fun of me..Reuel was the one who is pushing it too far...He took my things and doesnt want to return it back to me. He is pushing my limit to the very extent. Luckily i din 露出马脚。。 i nearly cried but i hold on to it...Till at night, when someone recall this situation to me, then i cant control. And roll down my tears...Overshot my limits, i am a gal and there, 2 guys gang up and bully me...Make fun of me. But i try to control...So i din do anything to them. Just asked them not to play anymore...

I post all these, is only want to write down my feelings toward this situation.I am not blaming anyone...Just want to tell them that..One have a certain limit, once exceed the limit, no matter how many Sorries you said, It is still useless, One's heart is already hurt...

However, my personality is that, i get things over very quickly, give me few days and i will be back to original self again.Make only once mistake and never make it again.

Recap of Yesterday: Way of celebrating is to accompany mom to nearby temple and listen to oldies' songs. Though i don understand what they are singing, it is still a form of celebrating the festival. I still managed to take some videos of mom's dancing. Quite interesting and funny too..:)

Sunday, September 14, 2008 ♥ 9/14/2008 04:24:00 PM

Mon is chemistry lesson and what so excited about it..?

from what i heard from friends after having this lesson, they all said that we are going to have ice-cream making session, we will going to learn how to make one.Exciting right....?

but i do hope that we will not landed to what W54Q''s class end up. And i was not saying that who caused the situation. I was only referring to what happened inside the lab.

Unfortunately, before they started to have fun that time, the thermometer accidentally dropped to the floor, so no choice. Everyone have to be evacuate out of the lab. Suay bu suay, they all are not to blame, only can blame on their luck.

enough of these sad situation..

I do hope that we get to have fun and at the same time learn something new....:)

♥ 9/14/2008 03:48:00 PM

Time for updates~

Today is Lantern Festival!! 中秋节快乐!!! :)
Though not going where for celebration, at least still going to nearby temple to have vegetarians and celebrate Lantern festival! I normally don play with Lantern and Candles, still i have my ways of celebrating too...

Let recap back:

Saturday: Nothing much, 原本want to revise my work, in the end, din :P rot at home the whole day using com and nothing else..

Friday: having AI lesson in school, Surprisingly i got an A from him. He did got ulterior motive, which is want to motivate me to speak up and say what ever i have in mind..I will try to improve on this point.

Thursday: Polymer And Composite Science lesson..Hmmm tougher than expected. No task shown, at least i have shown improvement by contributing 2 points during meeting 1, expected to do more next time! :)

And last point: Happy Birthday to Lin Yu Zhi!!!林昱志！just nice his birthday falls on 911 :P [Xiaoqian said i din post it]

Thursday, September 11, 2008 ♥ 9/11/2008 10:30:00 PM

Happy Birthday to 2 of my friends,
there are Kai Bing(Year1 sem 1) and Lian Yin(Year 1 sem 2). : )

Today is the starting of a brand new week, starting of problem2. Polymer and Composite Science lesson was boring as usual. Need more participation, and speak up more. Comments given by my faci. I forced myself to think of points to say of.So Far, i din do much talking, my team mates take off the credits, and i only help a small portions during meetings. Just too tired and i can be very weird. Sometimes if i have the mood, i can think fast and relevant points, if not i will stay quiet. In case, i said something wrong again.

Andy Sim's lesson tml, no later than 8.30am, no MSN, no Listening Music, No watching Movies, completed worksheet. His expectations of us. -.-
Heard that tml problem would be quite tough, regarding Microscope stuffs. Oh No, How to survive...?
seems that i doesnt have the mood to go to school and attend lesson. Days are getting boring, and i was super tired. As compared to last time, i dont even have extra time for leisure time.

Woots, i agree that faci are getting more demanding, can see it from the problem statement that they set.
complicated and full of tricks.Life in RP are getting tougher and tougher. i don no how much longer i can tolerate.

finding motivation...

Wednesday, September 10, 2008 ♥ 9/10/2008 10:19:00 PM

Time for updates.

One week had pass and i successfully attended 4 modules. having fun with my class as well as my ex classmates.. :) Grade for both Polymer and AI were out, though din get A. i will work harder next time..i don seem to have motivation in studying well. maybe too many distractions such as new movies, drama were out. i must control myself..

i really enjoy environmental science lesson, perhaps part of it was because of my team mates and as well as the facilitator. Her name is Priscilla and wOw first time sees a American Born person talking. Her ascent was quite comfortable, and 不得不佩服 that her english is real good. pretty cool to have this kind of faci...
in future, our lesson will be a interesting one.. ;)

wOOtz...My phone finally 起死回生..finally able to work...i totally missed my precious phone..it totally scare me...it was almost a week since it left me..must take care of it le...

tml is the starting of a brand new week-problem 2.
hope that everything can be smoothly done! :)

Monday, September 1, 2008 ♥ 9/01/2008 11:50:00 PM

what the heck is happening to me..?
these few days,i was so sUay..
Handphone spoilt ;'( [ what am i gonna do without Phone]
Haiz..
so pathetic.no phone left for me...
going school tml for Eureka Science Workshop..
gonna be a fun one. long day to go for tml...
both tired and feeling restless...

have been working for the past 2 days. continuously for 13 hours...
long time din work le, therefore my whole body ache.
only a couple of days for me to recover, before heading back to school aka new class.

Oh gosh, just realised that our Faci for Analytical Instrumentation is actually no other than Andy Sim..
what de!!!!???
!@#@$##$%#%#$%$^$^#$#!!!

think i gonna flunk this module.
with him teaching, we all can die liao le...
no need to take UTs anymore...
the result is very clear..
stop talkin about him..only make me vexed and pissed off..

2nd sept: my cousin 's 17th birthday. Happy birthday! Xuan Qi! :)
hope she have a wonderful birthday today.

holiday ending soon in 2 more days...
before our brand new life started off as Yr2 sem 2's student..
new friends/classmates, as well as familiar faces :)

nitez everyone..